The people that I admire~

I thought I would take a minute and talk about the people that I admire most. They may never read this, but I will put it out there anyways. Not in any particular order, those three people are Addison Taylor, Jess Cooper and Jeremy Crane. I came to know each of these individuals through my LDS singles ward, which I have to say is by far the best LDS ward I have ever been to, no exceptions. Each of these individuals have touched my life in someway, whether it be by their friendship, or by their example. Each one of them are the most trustworthy people that I have ever met. They will always joke if occasion permits, but never, never will any of them do so at the expense of someone else, or by putting someone or something else down in the process. They are each completely trust worthy, loyal (they will always follow through with their commitments, and if they can't for some reason, they'll let you know and then make it up to you), each of them are hard workers, time and time again placing others before themselves. There are many in this world that are trying to live their lives so that they are disciples of Christ, these three individuals I feel are very close to meeting that standard. Each of these continuously set the example for me and always push me to be better, to do better and to help other people. It's so awesome, even when I am in the lowest of moods, I can talk to any one of them, and the rest of my day no longer seems that bad. I wish there were more people in the world that look for the good in the world, and when they find it, in turn help others find it as well. Jeremy, Addison and Jess are all three very different people, there is one major thing however that I see that brings them together. They each have a testimony of Jesus Christ. A personal testimony, they do not need to rely on others, and they live by that. The light of Christ is with them always, guiding them, and prompting them what they should do in the very moment that they should do it. I do not know if hey have ever seen Christ or have talked with Him face to face, and it doesn't matter anyways, the life of Christ is contained in the Bible and The Book of Mormon, they each know these books inside and out. Also, because of a living prophet today, the world can receive revelation that effects us directly this very day and with the circumstances that we currently face.

Its funny

Its funny how fast life can turn around when you let it. Today is one of those days when nothing can get you down. Today started last night actually. There was a regional YSA fireside at which I was to sing at. Its funny that for a regional fireside, the choir more then doubled the attendance of others. It was an amazing fireside though and the spirit was def there. I'm so excited, I finally got around to applying for college and financial aid, its awesome, i feel so motivated now :). Would anyone wanna take my ACT for me though? I don't like tests. New friends are awesome and are beginning to play a major part in my new life. One thing that I have learned, we need to talk to our Heavenly Father everyday all the day with no exceptions whether it is easy to or not and whether or not we are in good standing in regards to the church or about to fall of the edge. Everyone is always saying that everyone needs counciling, I agree, but not with the kind of councilor that many chose. Would you agree to the statement that God knows all? How then is it not possible for him to be your counciler? The only thing that it costs to talk to him is your time, and even then, he so freely gives it back to us. I have found that Heavenly Father is the best person to talk to when counsling is needed. We all feel embarrassed to talk to someone that we really don't know about problems that have nothing to do with them, but since Heavenly Father already knows whats going on, why can't we just talk to him? He answers our prayers, how long he takes depends on us. He may answer during the prayer or at a much later time. I love how mighty and powerful my Heavenly Father is and how quick he can heal my broken heart when I let him. I do need to say that Heavenly Father is not alone in this, the healing that takes place and the counciling received can not be accomplished with out the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the price that he paid so that we can return to our Father. I really am liking my hair being longer, but, The Church has suggested shorter hair, and I know that I will be blessed if I follow. A thought that comes to mind, the things that we do minute to minute, are they things that edify each other and lift each other up? We are all in great need of being edified. Edifying each other I believe to be part of charity, and we can not be truly happy with out charity for charity is the pure love of Christ.
I find it interesting that so many times when you try to open up to people, the person that wants you to open up is often the one that closes up to what you have to say. Lately, I have friends that have been telling me that I have been putting up a wall and nothing seems to get passed it, but I have been doing everything that I can to get these things out and I have been expressing my feelings, emotions very specifically and yet everyone says that I keep closing up, I don't get it. But I do know that it doesn't matter what other people think because they are not me and they do not know everything pertaining to me and my life.

LIfe....

So, life right now is crazy. I never thought I could be so busy while having so little to do. I am taking 14 credit hours of institute and attempting to start a company and work full time. But with all the craziness that's going on its all worth it. I'm hoping that ill can stage manage for Herriman's "The Music Man," this summer. I am so excited for the production since I just watched the movie last night. I can't wait to get started on it and get going on rehearsals, set building, late nights, long hours, incurable headaches and all of that other stuff that I just can't simply seem to get enough of.
I'm so lucky, I get to sing at the March 2009 CES fireside and then at the Saturday Afternoon session of general conference. I love singing so much and since I'm not at all as good of a singer as I would like to be, its so cool that I get to sing with people that are way better then me and have way more experience. Not to mention that they are totally awesome people.
I'm so grateful for all the gifts that Heavenly Father is giving me in my life right now. Things have not been easy the past few months but I am finding that as I endure my trials, I am strengthened and become way stronger then I ever was before. Part of my current trials is to face my life, past, present and future. As with all of us, some parts are ugly and it is very hard and almost incomprehensible of how much it hurts to look back into these events. I can't do anything about these past events, but I can control the here now and what leads up to my future and I know that as I walk with God, I never stand alone. He is here, and will always be here as I allow Him to be.
I've lost two really good friends in the past 4 months bringing my total of lost really good friends to about 10. Sometimes, I really wish that they could be here with me. It hurts to think about how my life has changed since they have gone and the only thing that I can find as a strength to carry on is that Heavenly Father must have a much bigger plan for them then what is offered in this life. Death is a very interesting thing and it all plays a very real and major part in our lives. I wish as do you, that it could be avoided. I so often have let my wall down so quickly to people so we can become friends, every time I have, its always ended badly and everyone that I have done this to has in one way or another died. Am I an emotional killer? Well, now I'm trying to keep my wall up and some are saying that I need to bring it down, IDK, life gets so confusing sometimes.
Okay, so I really need to be looking for work. It's hard to want to do this since every place that I have attempted employment thus far, is not interested. I am so ready to be working and be bringing in money again. I have so much vast experience that I can pretty much do anything, but I suppose companies are looking for people that have the degree that "entitles" them to flip burgers even if they have no clue of how to do so. It's the whole books over experience thing going on here. I sleep, a lot. It seems as if its one of my new favorite past times, although I am always tired. sleep 12 hours awake for 3 and sleep some more. Is this healthy?
Since I have been home from the MTC, I have successfully lost 40lbs(2.5-3months). How? I have no clue, it just kinda happened. Which is great minus the fact that I no longer have any clothes that fit me.
Well, you probably knew this would come sooner or later, but, I think I am in the beginning stages of a very long relationship, at least I hope. I would say Her name, but I don't wanna yet. It's so crazy! When I'm with her, everything just seems so right, all of my problems just seem to fade away and nothing matters anymore, all I can do is think of Her. Even right now while I'm writing this, She is texting me and with every text it's hard to keep from smiling even more then before. Sometimes its so hard because she has such a busy schedule and I don't get to see her as often as I would like to. We watched a movie together last night and kinda cuddled. (I wish cuddling was not so awkward for me since I love it so much)I just wanna spend all my time with Her. And why? I dunno, I'm not ready to get married, Being with Her, just makes me feel so good. She is like my other half and She completes me. I have so much more to say, but I have to wait for my thoughts to turn into words before I can say anything else.

Craziness!

So, life has been crazy lately. If you ever decide to go on a mission, make sure all Health problems are completely cleared up before hand, otherwise it could create a huge mess. The MTC, it was awesome, although I would not recommend the food to my worst enemy(most missionaries could say the same). I visited the doctor while at the MTC and was told that I am not use to eating such good quality food, I dont know what he calls good quality but the hidden restaurant upstairs (oops. you dont know about this) is only for the teachers and staff at the MTC. I have managed to go through a number of cell phones again since I have been back, I still have no desire to have anything to do with Verizon, they rip you off so badly and their coverage, (which is why they say that they are worth the extra money)is nothing to brag about. I did however like having the unlimited TV package during my "Test Drive" with Verizon. To give an idea of how expensive they are, I had them for a total of 7 days, for that 7 days, I owe $150. The services that I had to add up to that: bottom off the line minutes at 450, (there were nice enough to include unlimited nights and weekends though), and unlimited messaging. I do acknowledge that there is a $35 activation fee but all three of those combined, should not add up to more the $90, they charged me $60 more then their closest competitor. I switched back to T-mobile today, I was able to get under a plan WITHOUT a contract, 600 minutes, unlimited texts, unlimited: nights/weekends/mobile to mobile all for a total of $55/month and has no activation fee. Not to mention that I have never dropped a call with t-mobile and when I am told that I will have service in a specific area, guess what?, I have service there and full service. If there is any doubt that I will not have service there, T-mobile has the courtesy of letting me know this and they don't just cover the entire map of the USA with red claiming that they have great coverage, or coverage at all for that matter, everywhere from coast to coast. Now, one might say, but Verizon has been adding all of these new towers and other radio frequencies, although that is true, they currently have no phones that support these towers and have no near future plans (next 5 years) of implementing any phones that will work on these.

Okay, I think that I am done talking about Verizon now! So, my good friends Grandma died yesterday. Sad day! She was an awesome Grandma and although I did not know her for long, I have much good that can be said about her. I hope that the family that was left behind is doing alright and does and will find joy and happiness again that this Daughter of our Heavenly Father will be seen again and that our afflictions are but only a small moment.

College, I have decided that I am going to be going to Snow college, I realy LOVE the programs that they have to offer, the prices are in my reach, and not to mention that everything is more hands on and I will be able to learn and be taught and not just be lectured before a test. I don't know for sure when Ill be starting there though, it feels like the right school, but now doesn't feel quite the right time. Snow has the privilege and opportunity to be the only school in the world that has connections with Julliard (school of Music) and have private tutors come from Julliard on occasion. Snow College is in Ephraim, Utah, small town just north of Manti. There is NOTHING to do there, which may and will be hard for me, but at the same, time, I will be able to focus on my schooling with out al of the many distractions that are often present.

It is hard being home now. I often wake up in the mornings and find myself thinking about what I would be doing right then if the Doctors had allowed me to go on to the field. I could so easily be bringing my brothers and sisters the restored gospel of Jesus Christ, and live, breathe and eat it everyday all day. I cant wait to get back out there. I found a job that I am going to apply to become a 911 operator, I think it would be a great job and I would have so much fun taking part in saving peoples lives monday through friday 8-5. This time that I have not much going for me has been of great help, there has been so much time to read ponder and pray about things of this gospel and just simply draw nearer unto my Heavenly Father. I cant think of what else to say right now, so give it a few more hours, ill be back.

robots

Why must we all be robots pushed and pulled by the machines of this world? There has to be something more that we can do in this life.

He wakes up; he sips his coffee as he runs out the door this Monday morning. Always running late for work, yet he leaves at the exact same time every day. As he backs out, he fails to notice the ever so routiness of all the late to work neighbors that back out of their drive the exact same time he does. He now begins driving to work, along with his neighborhood. It takes him an hour and a half to leave his neighborhood, by this time, he is furious.

Why does everyone have to leave for work at the exact same time? Sadly enough, this is exactly how many Americans live. Although this example is a bit extreme, it is not too far fetched from what I have witnessed in my own life and neighborhood. Most people wake up, wishing they could stay home in bed that day and maybe watch a good comedian, I wake up every day, and I watch something way more entertaining, the morning flow of life itself, everyone pushing and shoving all trying to go the same place at the same time. What is it that prohibits us from realizing that if and when we take turns, things will happen much faster and as we slow down, we will arrive at our destination happy? When are we as a society going to step back and take a look at our lives and realize what we are doing to ourselves?

He is now on the freeway, the fastest way to work, (that is when traffic is not traveling at a speed at which he is most likely to be passed by a mule as he chews the grass along side the road).

This brings up another very important point, what causes rush hour? Have you ever stopped to figure this great mystery out? Well, I will tell you. You work 8-5, this is great you think because you get an hour for lunch and you have the benefits of sleeping in and after fighting traffic you have the opportunity to go home to be with you family, wife, kids etc… whatever your family is at this stage in your life. When your kid asks you for help with his science project, the reaction of a good father would be to jump up at the idea of spending time with their child. Instead, this father has allowed himself to get angry over the traffic on his way home and decides to yell at this child until the father himself is left alone. And we wonder why divorce applications have become a major purchase at your local convenience store.

While on his way home, he is unhappy at the speed of which traffic is traveling, as a driver he has the obligation to be proactive, so what does he do? He tail gates the whole way home. It doesn’t matter to him at what speed he is going as long as he gets to tail gait because tell gaiting is in no way hazardous to ones life.

In the course of daily events I have personally witnessed this event occur over and over again.

It is not uncommon for someone to tail gait and when he finally becomes the one that gets to lead the remainder of the following traffic, what does he do? What else but stay at the exact same speed, hey he may even slow down now that the person in front of he, which by the way, was going at least 15 miles over the speed limit in the first place, is gone and has created all the time in the world for this newly found front driver.

If you can not tell by this point in my story, I have much to say about the machine and all the robots that go along with it. I’m saddened to say that many of my friends even fall under the category of a robot. It’s as if ones IQ starts talking to its self and the conversation goes as follows;

“Hey me, I think I just got in a car, OH CRAP! NOT A CAR, ANYTHING BUT A CAR! Quick shut down sectors 1,2, 3… hey for that matter leave sector 322 (the section that maintains the bodies normal conditions excluding thinking of the brain) on turn everything else off, under no circumstance do I want our body to be thinking logically whiling driving, any other time, by all means, but we just got in a car for Pete’s sake, lets make this person stupid.”

You may be laughing, and if so, stop. Right now! Think about this, all of this, how many people do you know that have these symptoms? Are you one of these people? While driving, one of the things that I love the most, is watching all of these 8-5 drivers (I say 8-5 because it is rare that I witness ill drivers that work at other hours.) Here is a typical description of an 8-5 driver; absolutely under NO circumstance is this robot allowed to turn their head. This person is majorly lacking in self confidence, and what does this person do to compensate for it? Well ill tell you, two things are done here, the first, buy huge truck and jack it way up so that you can no longer see the other cars around you and your new insurance quote and lack of gas mileage gives you something new to dumped all of your hard earned money into, the second, DO NOT USE A TURN SIGNAL, for some reason this concept has grown to be an idea that it is socially unacceptable to use your turn signal when you change lanes or simply change your direction while driving not to mention the thrill that one must get when they see the look on the drivers faces around them when a vehicle is all of a sudden in a different lane. As funny as this may be, this is what causes accidents. Think about it, you’re in your car, most likely tail gaiting, and you’re completely surrounded by 8-5 workers and the occasional soccer mom. Which btw, soccer moms are awesome and amazing people, if you ever have the chance to watch one for a few minutes do it, but they are bound to be so busy, that you may want to have a place to go to to take a nap, simply watching a mother like this is bound to wear one out. Changing lanes like this, is bound to confuse the poor 8-5 worker and cause them to need to go to adverse therapy sessions at which the person accomplises nothing because, lets face it, male and female like, you wants to actually talk about their feelings and express them in a safe way? No most of this country, you mention anything about feelings, you’re all of a sudden friend less.

High school is amazing! Didn’t you love it? I remember, did you ever have any teachers that it seemed as if they absolutely hated your guts? I know for sure that I did and I to this day would never doubt that they really did hate me. The funny thing is this, all the teachers that I had like this were not young but old, here is a prime example of what an 8-5 job can do to you after large amounts of over exposure. Something that I would like to point out here, who is in charge of public schooling? Huh, the Government. That’s interesting, who is in charge of enforcing the law? Huh, again it’s the Government. Now, if you look back at something that you should have learned in school if you were not too busy being trained to be the mindless robot that many of us are and prepping for the States standardized testing to see if you know how to accurately take a test, and spending all of your free time out side of school looking up information on the internet trying to learn the important stuff that is not taught in school, btw, if you still have not figured this out, you were never being tested for what you knew, you were being tested on how good you are at taking the test, the students that did the best, most likely guessed their way through the test. I loved taking those standardized English tests, Almost every question I got wrong, who ever wrote the question book, was definitely not an English major, otherwise this ninth grader would not need to be spending their test time correcting all of the grammatical errors contained in a test booklet that were only put there in the first place to make sure a large amount of mis-understood words were included in the booklet. The Government wants students to succeed? How about trying a new style of teaching that involves something other then tests?

Studies conducted by myself, (“who does this kid think he is that he can justify announcing a study that he conducted himself? Well, I’m a human, I have the right to conduct a controlled observation and report my findings, regardless of the fact that I have not been to school to better stupefy my brain and earn a degree, Degree: A very expensive peace of paper stating that an individual has given up ones time efficiently enough to warrant speaking to the public.”) show that most students do not do well on tests but they have no problem using the information in real life applications. So, based off my studies, should we be testing in our schools? NO!

I keep getting side tract here, oh well, its at least all interesting to me. So, as you know, the Government, no matter what US government it is (City, County, State…) is broken into three divisions, the legislative, judicial and executive. We have already established that schools must be in some branch of government. That narrows our options down to those three. Which could it be? Executive? Nope, why would a president care about your individual kid? That’s not his job, his job is to protect the country as a whole and assure that a majority of the people are well taken care of and have everything they need so they will be happy to pay their taxes and support a government that is filled with corrupt politicians waiting to cover up their next act of constitutional breakage. Before you go judging my personal character, I wish to inform you that we have what is to be considered the best government on earth. I support all government leaders fully and respect their position and thank them for their honest and dedicated efforts that are contributed to our great country on a daily basis.

Lecture time. Maybe you can call this a test.

Below is a paragraph that I have personally typed, read it carefully and see if you can figure out which TV show on ABC Family the paragraph is referring to. Also, if you can make any sense out of this and maybe even compare/relate it to something else, let me know. First clue for this paragraph will be the meaning of the first sentence. (When this person comes across people that are out there to have HIM killed, he must do something to maintain his environment and keep all of the "over charge of negative ions = bad people" out of his atmosphere. Hope that clue helps. Ill post the next clue after I get a few responses and some interest is shown. As the time goes by, I will attempt to post all of your guesses at the bottom of the post so you wont need to repeat guesses. GOOD LUCK!

When reacted up on by certain forces, one must compensate for the over charge of the negative ions positating the atmosphere within its environment. You can not help but remember the need for constant surveillance of these forces and their equal reaction and how they relate. These reactions are important as they will dictate life as it is known. If these forces are shared openly, they will, with out doubt, reverse the charges necessary for life to continue in such a way that any opportunity to present normality will be declined. If this persists, this new power will attract alternate ions inserted into the equation set to alter the outcome of the project and deviate this new substance as opportunity regulates allowing for the negative discharge of this power in such ways that can not be controlled by its inherent creator. This power is and will be set upon the knowledge of the creator and then relayed to its subunit with the appropriate functionality and information necessary to convey the purpose of the intended beginning.

Its funny how some things work out.

I have been working towards turning in my Mission papers for quite some time now, and for some reason, it seems that the closer that i get to actually turning the papers in, the harder Satan works on me and things come up that could and may prevent me from going on a mission. The most recent event would be needing to go before a judge for my license, (look for the post about free government gifts). But, that's not where it stops at, there is also some insane guy sueing me, a 19 year old for something that even the attorneys can not figure out, for an traffic accident I was involved in a few years ago. I suppose you could also say that the lack of jobs is definitely working in Satan's favor as I prepare for my mission. I know I am supposed to go and that is how it will be. With all of this happening, every new event makes me want to go that much sooner and right now, I cant wait to go. I find myself checking the mail everyday looking for my mission call and then I remember that I have yet to turn in my papers.